Saturday, 11 July 2015

i went to prom


Throughout high school, despite the fact I have never been keen on the idea of actually going to prom, I participated in excited and delusional conversation about how 'perfect' the night would be when it actually came. I spend the majority of my ICT lessons watching as my friend scrolled through websites in search of a prom dress, occasionally saying things like 'I love that one' in order to seem interested. The truth is, unlike the rest of the high school musical generation, I was not excited to go to prom.

The whole affair has always seemed awkward to me. Arriving in hired transport in a dress that is way too over the top, wearing make up that is too intense for day light and being supervised by teachers all night... nothing about it is really appealing. I have always viewed the event as more of an over hyped school disco, rather than the sophisticated event that our school wanted us to expect. 

I can understand the appeal in a way. My distaste was mainly fuelled by how truly shy I am, meaning a night of crowds and photographs isn't exactly ideal for me. However, I understand that most teenagers actually enjoy feeling glamorous and dancing with their friends to celebrate freedom from high school. 

Anyway, after all the months of hype the day actually seemed quite disappointing. But I did kind of enjoy it. We favoured dramatic photo shoots rather than dancing to the YMCA and sitting at the table and laughing over all the stupid things we had done. Prom is not the night portrayed in movies. There is no 'walking down the staircase moment', it's more like stress over make up and hair and hurriedly trying to apply false eyelashes with minutes to go. Despite the stress.. I suppose it was fun to see the people I've known since I was eleven looking like disney princesses...

Truthfully: I will miss high school. I'll miss sitting on the bus when it's dark and arguing about whether the windows should be open or closed (closed of course!). I'll miss those lessons that aren't really important, meaning that you can spend them talking or scrolling through the Topshop website. I'll miss water fights on the field in summer and avoiding snowballs in winter. I'll even miss wearing uniform! Having to pick an outfit each day in college will be torture after the security of my blue stripy tie (complete with holes from attempts to set them on fire with a magnifying glass in year 7). I'll especially miss the endless pockets of a blazer.... where will I keep my phone???

My blog has documented three of my most crucial years at high school, and if I can bare to go back and read embarrassing posts, I can see myself growing up. The next two years of my life will be spent in a new environment at college, and although I'm nervous I'm kind of excited to see how things change. Maybe I will finally decide what I actually want to write about.

PS: I kind of like this photo even though it's really blurry because I actually look happy. I favour candid photos of people because I think that's when you can truly see how they were feeling...



10 comments:

  1. You looked lovely and I'm glad you enjoyed it. I just had prom and I found it was a great way to end school :)

    Alice
    the-rose-glow.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Thank you :) glad you enjoyed it too! <3

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  2. I love your dress, it's really pretty. Good luck with your next steps! x

    Becca
    www.butterflybecca.com

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  3. I've just recently had my prom too and I agree that it was nothing like I expected. Very stressful especially for girls- the boys have it easy! However it was a good night because I knew it was last time the whole school and all the people I've grown up with these past 5 years would be together in the same room. As much as I moan about high school I will miss it a lot!

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    1. I know! I think boys could show up in their school uniform and nobody would notice! So will I :( good luck for whatever you do next! <3

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  4. You looked stunning! I think it's often the shy girls who really take everyone by surprise and look amazing at prom.
    I remember feeling exactly the same as you about leaving high school last year - right down to how I'd cope without blazer pockets!
    You'll be fine at college and the outfit freedom is sooooo much better, I promise :P
    lily x
    jolihouse.com

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    1. Thank you so much!!!! Oh my god it's good to know somebody appreciates the blazer too haha. Thank you, thats very reassuring <3

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