Saturday, 21 June 2014

it grows like fancy flowers but it grows nowhere

I've always been the kind of person who prefers to be alone. Although I love being surrounded by the energy of my friends, and falling into fits of laughter constantly, it can sometimes become very overwhelming and I need time to 'recharge' on my own. Many of the people in my life have big personalities that light up the room when they enter, and I've just never been that person. As much as I used to wish, as I invented a life inside my head where I wasn't so shy, I will never be the one to radiate confidence and happiness. These days I'm pretty content with this, however it can be hard for the more extroverted of people to understand, especially when I favour a night watching movies to 'being a teenager' and doing stereotypically rebellious things that I'm supposed to do at this age.

You'd think that my parents would be glad I was choosing quiet nights in my room over of loud parties often ending in disaster (I know from experience..), but no. I'm constantly told I need to escape my bedroom and live my life ("soak up some vitamin D" my Mum often tells me). I don't want to spend the rest of my teenage years being boring, but it's hard to find a balance between being comfortable and doing the things my friends want to do.

Today, after another week of stress due to a two and a half hour Spanish exam and yet more art coursework (it's never ending), I really wanted to spend the weekend doing absolutely nothing. After both my parents complained that all I was doing was sitting in bed on my laptop, I decided to face the outdoors. I haven't actually spent a lot of time in my garden since I was younger. Memories of picking the petals off of the roses my Dad has been growing in order to make 'perfume' with my sister (sorry Dad!) and using the hose as the ultimate water fight weapon are still some of my favourites from childhood summers, but since then I've spent more time elsewhere. I think we often forget that the best things in life are literally just outside of our doors, because returning to the patch of grass behind my house today was actually really relaxing and fun.

I spent the whole day drinking iced green tea (when it's hot it tastes like what I imagine the inside of a dishwasher would taste like) and reading, which makes me sound like someone's Grandma, but nevertheless, it was needed. One thing I did realise is that the whole conception of nature being 'peaceful' is completely wrong. I don't live in the wilderness, but insects and birds make a lot of noise which I think I usually tend to drown out.

Next week I have one GCSE exam and one mock and then I am done with Year 10 exams! I am celebrating on Tuesday by going to TGI Fridays (not on a Friday.. how hilarious..) and watching 'The Fault in Our Stars' like the rest of the world currently is, with my friend. I hope you are having a great weekend and aren't feeling too stressed about exams! Adios amigos

Monday, 16 June 2014

shopping my make up stash

The concept of 'Shopping your stash' is basically to explore our, sometimes excessive, make up collections and choose a few items that we don't give enough love to. It's a great way to re-discover products you forgot you had and previously loved (and it also ensures that you don't have a drawer full of thing you never use). Honestly, compared to the majority of bloggers my make up collections is rather small but I tend to gravitate towards the same things, meaning everything else gets left behind. I managed to select 5 products that don't get enough use, and make a concious effort to 'give them some more love'.
Benefit Bad Gal Lash mascara
I now have a grand total of three tubes of this mascara, which is definitely too much. Don't worry, I didn't buy them all, I received them as Christmas presents and haven't got around to using them up. This is a really good mascara, the wand is huge and it makes your lashes long yet kind of natural. I think it's perfect for school/work as it doesn't make your eyelashes resemble spiders legs.. (currently having war flashbacks to those days.. ew).
Rimmel Match Perfection Foundation
Rimmel used to have some kind of 'anti aging' (or something like that) foundation which I loved, even though I'm a teenager.. It didn't stick to dry patches and it gave a good, natural coverage.. yet they discontinued it. I bought this in October last year and upon first use I realised it was that foundation under a different name! Or at least it smells and feels the same.. I often forget about this due to my Mac Studio Sculpt, but since this is way cheaper it seems more appropriate for every day use. The only problems is it's slightly pink toned, and my skin (although as white as milk) is more on the yellow side..
Bourjois Color Boost lipsticks
I bought these last year when they started flooding the blogosphere, but I've only used the shade 'Peach On The Beach'. They're really moisturising and I love the colours, so I don't know why I never seem to reach for them. I don't wear lipstick on a daily basis anyway, but I'll be sure to get these out at the weekend (here I am.. pretending I have a social life).
Dainty Doll Blush shade 001
When I heard of the launch of 'Dainty Doll', it's fair to say I was excited. A whole make up brand dedicated to pale people?! I ordered this shade, trusting the colour on the website about two years ago and I was kind of disappointed when it arrived. It's pale purple and I had no idea how to wear it. I'm going to try again and see if I can get it to work.
Mac Eye Brow pencil? (The website doesn't say a name!)
My friend bought me this for Christmas, and I love it. It stays on all day and makes your eyebrows more natural and less.. slug like. I'm terrified of using it up so I turn to Benefit 'Brow-zing' more often, but I do want to use this more as it's so good. You can view the product here as I can't actually find the name for it.

Here's hoping I actually use these!

Saturday, 14 June 2014

bedroom inspiration

A boring photo of my own room

As a teenager it seems that having a messy room is simply a part of nature, along with hormones and bad skin (I am extremely jealous if you've survived your teenage years without spots). Although I pride myself in having an extremely tidy and organised wardrobe (it stresses me out when it's not!), the rest of my room is not exactly spotless. Don't get me wrong, it's not dirty.. just very messy. While sat around piles of clothes, an unmade bed, stacks of books and magazines as well as a seemingly endless amount of mugs, I like to escape into the world of tumblr where people display their flawless bedrooms for me to stare at with envy. I find a weird sense of comfort in watching room tours or stalking interior design blogs, because it provides a kind of 'escape' from my own boring room. I'm going to try and make an effort to make the space where I spend the majority of my time more interesting, so I thought it would be appropriate to write a post including some pictures that are inspiring me. As you can see, I tend to go for the rooms with walls covered in photos and tiny spaces full of stuff. I like the fact that you can see personality and life through the room, and it shows that it's actually being lived in. All the sources will be listed at the end of the post as obviously, the only image that belongs to me is the one above.

Image sources: 12345678
(Obviously I don't know if these are the real owners of the images, however that is where I found them!)

Friday, 13 June 2014

I know it's sad but I never gave a damn about the weather

As well as being incredibly socially awkward, one of the stereotypically British personality traits that I have is the fact I always want to talk about the weather. Maybe it's because the sky above our little island can never decide if it wants to emit rays of sun or shower us in freezing water, so we are all so intrigued by the unpredictability of it.. or maybe we're all just really boring and our lack of social skills mean we always turn to the weather as the small talk topic of choice. Either way, it's raining right now which seems strange after the week of intense heat and sunshine (although I'm sure those of you from more.. 'tropical' environments would laugh at our excuse for heat).
 After hearing thunder for the past hour and convincing myself it was just someone's car engine, the sky opened up and ruined everybody's plans of village events in fields (if I have to wear wellys in June tomorrow I'm sure I will be using it in an awkward conversation about the typical British summer at some point) or any kind of 'Summer' activity outdoors. The sky is really pretty right now though,  it's as if the sunset is trying to break through the ever present grey clouds and instead covering the sky in a strange purple colour that seems vaguely reminiscent from some childhood cartoon I can't quite remember. I did try to get a photo but it doesn't show up, so enjoy this one of the sunset a few days ago (while I was taking this someone in the house below was watching me in their window... Embarrassing..).
 It seems so relaxing to sit with my window open, letting the sound of rain almost over power the sound of my incredibly loud (and annoying) laptop fan after the stressful week I've had of science exams and too many P.E lessons. Now year 11 have officially left school I feel excited for the future. One more year and I'll finally be able to walk out of the school gates and never look back.. I can't wait.
Having said that, I have been really happy lately. It seems like any kind of negativity in my life has gone, and I just feel so calm. I know some people may be rolling their eyes at a 15 year old mentioning 'negativity' but all I can say is it feels good to be able to laugh and smile and not care about anything.

I hope you all had a good Friday the 13th and if not, I hope tomorrow makes up for it! I will try to go to sleep and wake up a less cheesy person.