Sunday, 11 May 2014

exam stress, blogging and determination

Like many teenage bloggers recently, I've had to push my blog to the back of my mind what with the sudden buzz and stress of upcoming exams. This year I have 4 real GCSE exams and 3 mocks which although doesn't sound like a lot, it feels like the end of the world. All through high school I've been reminded that this day was inevitable and no matter how much I chose to avoid it, it would come. Guess what? My teachers were right, all the moments of daydreaming and doodling in the corner of the page while I was supposed to be making notes has resulted in a huge amount of stress and regret from me. 

I've suddenly become really excited to leave high school, and the majority of the time I should be revising is spent searching local college courses and seeing how far away from my town I can get without paying extortionate amounts for train fare. Growing up has now become an obsession in a strange way, I can't wait to just get on with my life and leave behind high school (which I can honestly say is my least favourite place in the world). Along with this new attitude I've developed a weird determination to work hard, although every time I say this it fails miserably the next day..

I really want to try and succeed but my laziness and constant procrastination pulls me back, which is something I can obviously only blame on myself. Since starting a blog I've realised that I often get caught up in blogging and everything surrounding it, including twitter, emails and of course reading other blogs. Although I do love it, it can be incredibly distracting when I really should be revising or doing coursework which is why I'm going to have to abandon this little space of the internet for a while.

Hopefully the next time I post I'll be able to say that I've done something productive with my time like, for example, finding a Saturday job (I need money but I'm too shy to walk in and ask!). Are you currently doing exams? How are you surviving? I really need some tips and assurance that I'm not the only lazy one..

10 comments:

  1. This is an incredibly relatable post, for all #tbloggers. I cannot wait for the day I leave school. I am looking forward to having true independence and a academic freedom rather than revising things that you hated the first time around, let alone having to learn it again.
    I also hate the judgement you seem to get at highschool. you are either popular, unknown or a geek and you get put into one of the three. Adults say it is the best time of your life but they seem to cut out the anxiety, stress and bullying that can also be part of it xx

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    1. Thankyou very much! I agree, I can't wait to get to choose the thing I want to study rather than being forced into P.E and maths lessons.
      Exactly, people forget how stressful high school really is!

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  2. I agree with everything you've said! I planned on getting as far away from my school for next year, typically my best option was going to the sixth-form... I learnt from last years that if you walk out thinking you might have not done as well as you thought you'd do, it doesn't actually mean you've done bad, and don't compare answers to other people! I sent myself mad doing that! Definitely not going to be doing that this year! Good luck with all of you're exams!

    www.teand0nuts.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Ah thank you for your advice! I'm always comparing myself to others, I'll definitely avoid that from now on ;)
      Thank you so much, and good luck to you too!

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  3. I completely agree with what both you and 'Lucy's Little Blog' have written! I just about managed to survive the Year 11 GCSE exams this year but by the time you come round to sitting them, as long as you keep the stress under control, all the hard work that you put into revision pays off. Obviously you'll have the odd bad exam but hopefully they'll all go great... Which exams did you sit this year? As for results day, I'm trying to completely forget about exams until 21 August. Don't let it play on your mind and ruin your summer! Especially next year - it's the longest holiday of your life! I can also relate to the obsession of growing up and specialising (academically speaking). I look forward to exploring more of your blog as I thoroughly enjoy reading personal blogs (alongside writing my own) and have yet to read many of your posts.
    -Gio // http://swim-eat-sleep.blogspot.co.uk/

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    1. Good luck for results day! I really hope you achieve the results you wanted!
      I sat Physics, Chemistry and Biology, Statistics and for mocks I did 2 Geography exams, R.E, Spanish speaking listening and reading and probably more but I can't remember haha.
      Thanks so much for your lovely comment!
      <3

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    2. Thank you! :) And likewise, I trust that results day will bring everything you're hoping for too. You'll be thoroughly accustomed to the whole process by this time next year as I did pretty much the same exams when I was in Year 10. Haha, yes, they all seem to merge into one big blur of stress and frenzied scribbling. That or I'm not the only person with a terrible memory! You're more than welcome; honestly, it's no problem. That's what the blogging community's all about! Your style of writing is fantastic and, I have to say, your 'Books vs E-readers' post is absolutely brilliant. By the way, the second paragraph is by far my favourite because you're spot on with regard to the blissful feeling that is evoked by a book's fundamental physical existence. Oh yes, I also entirely agree with your views on change. It should be something we embrace, rather than fear, because we would never progress if it were not for change... x

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    3. You are just TOO NICE! Thank you so much for these comments, you've really put a smile on my face, I'm so happy you like the things I write!
      I'm going to stalk your blog now because you are a truly brilliant person.
      Thanks again for making me so happy <3

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    4. Haha, you can never be too nice! Laura, you're more than welcome and I'm really glad that my input means something to you. I've just read your most recent posts which left me filled with utter admiration, with 'A Year Later' being especially relevant. I began blogging for similar reasons to you however I've never felt perfectly satisfied in my explanation - but this post is absolutely unparalleled! I think extremely highly of the strength of character it must have taken to string together those words and am truly excited to see what you publish next. Ahaha, don't flatter me ;) but thank you (I hope my blog didn't bore you) and, again, I can't put into words how happy it has made me to read that! Please continue to do the thing that you have an obvious passion for -- I certainly love learning about you as a person by reading it! xx

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    5. I cannot thank you enough for these comments because you have made me feel so good about myself and my blog and I am so so grateful for your kind words. I never thought anybody cared about what I wrote and you've made me so happy to know that somebody does! The fact that you took time out of your day just to compliment me shows that you are a great person and I truly believe that great things will happen in your life, as good things ALWAYS happen to good people! Thank you again, and I wish you the best of luck in your journey to becoming a swimmer! (it will happen!)
      Sending you all the love <3

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