Sunday, 19 January 2014

every word's a new regret if you say it right

Life lately hasn't been very interesting. This has been a long week of muddy walks, too many maths lessons and lots of coffee. Saying 'muddy walks' makes me sound like I have voluntarily done some kind of activity but alas, it's simply my walk home mixed with lots of rain and mud (which is a nightmare if you're prone to falling over like me). I've been on the verge of breaking down with the stress of art coursework but remaining calm by sleeping when I should be doing my work..
I've only listened to Fall Out Boy this week, purely because I've rediscovered my love for Patrick Stump's flawless voice (I have also been playing his solo album 'Soul Punk' on repeat because it is incredible). It's gotten to the point that I've spent most lessons counting down the minutes until break so I can put my earphones in and partially ignore my friends... oops. It's strange how many people use music as an outlet, whether you're tapping your feet to a song you claim to hate on the radio or loosing yourself in the words of your favourite band on the bus, to the point you're in danger of missing your stop (I'm guilty of this). I don't think there's one person in the world who doesn't like music.
What have you been listening to this week?

Sunday, 12 January 2014

that fragile capricorn unravelled words

The only photos I took this week

This cold, rainy week has been a good one. I started my first school week of 2014 on Monday with a positive attitude and motivation to try hard, even though I had only managed 3 hours sleep. However, the excitement of seeing my friends again distracted me from wanting to crawl back into bed and I braved the freezing wind for my education (my teachers would love me if they heard me say that). Most of the week was a blur of long I.T lessons and the phrase 'it's time to start thinking about college' which makes me nervous. Why does high school have to be so short? At the same time as scaring me, all this talk of college has made me excited with the thought of what the future has to hold. I am currently in the process of deciding which lessons I want to do on the first college taster day, which I am not looking forward to. The possibility of being alone in subjects and having to talk to new people makes me very nervous however I'm going to put my best foot forward and step out of my comfort zone. Although the thought of leaving high school makes me slightly sad and scared, after reading through the college booklet a  few times I am now excited to see what the future will bring. All this talk of college was like a wake up call that's made me suddenly feel very motivated and determined to reach my 'life goals' and succeed. On Thursday I turned 15, not exactly a milestone but nevertheless, it happened. I received amazing gifts from my friends (including a huge pack of peanut butter Oreos which is a combination of two of my favourite things, and a Michael Buble calender which sent me into hysterics when I opened it but it is now placed proudly in my room). My parents gave me a Lionel Richie CD and tissues that look like money. This was definitely the year of the joke gifts, but I still love them all. On Saturday (which is yesterday as I write this) I went shopping with my best friends to celebrate my birthday where I managed to limit myself to only buying items in the sale (by the way, if you live near a Victoria's Secret go there now! £11 body sprays are reduced to £2.50, needless to say I now have too many). We then went to my second home, TGI Fridays and had long, pointless conversations that ended with me laughing very hard. I had a really good day and I am now even more grateful of my friends. I am surrounded by a group of intelligent, kind, hilarious and most of all positive people that make me feel very happy. After having a not so great year, I can now fully appreciate how lucky I am to have people in my life that actually care about me, even if I don't tell them. I find it easier to express myself through writing as when I try to say something serious the words never seem to come out properly. That's why I'm glad I found the blogging community and took the plunge to start my own blog to share my thoughts and opinions with a small group of amazing people. Even though I sometimes forget to post or join in the twitter chats, and my blog is small, I'm still very proud of it and my decision to start it. Its strange to think that a year ago I was reading blogs with no confidence to start my own and today I'm sharing my deepest thoughts with a handful of strangers on the internet.
 I apologise for the rambley-ness off this blog post, I just felt like sharing a quick life update with anyone who cares. Even if you've had a less than fabulous week, share something with me in a comment that has made you smile. Sharing your positivity will make you and others feel happier!
I wish that you all have an amazing week!

Sunday, 5 January 2014

my week in photos 1

1- yesterday I went into Leeds for food and a little bit of shopping with one of my very close friends. Unfortunately we ended up missing the train by a second (it was literally leaving the station as we arrived, which was the first and the last time I have ran for any kind of public transport). We ended up sitting in the train station having deep conversations and Starbucks. (I had a salted caramel hot chocolate as I'm trying to stop drinking caffeine after 10 am).
2- I never take selfies, I hadn't updated any social networking profile pictures for a year! But somehow this ended up on my instagram.. I don't know what else to say.
3- My obsession with cleaning and getting rid of old stuff recently lead me to finding these old photo booth pictures of me and my friends in year 8! I love re-discovering things like this, it made me smile a lot.
4- I've been painting my nails a lot more than usual at the moment and couldn't resist a typical #notd shot. This is one of the magnetic 'essie' nail polishes with a glittery 'ciate' one from my sisters advent calender on top!

Thursday, 2 January 2014

new year

January. A month when spirits are running high and the promise of more exercise or a happier future seems to be the thought on everybody's minds. And although the pessimist inside of me is screaming 'it's just another day!' I can't help but be filled with joy and anticipation of what this year is going to bring. There are 363 more days of 2014 which you have not yet lived. You do not know what they hold or whether this is going to be an amazing year or one you'd rather forget. I'm the kind of person who usually hates change, but this year I'm going to try to transform my life into something other than the dull everyday routine that it has become. As usual, I have some resolutions and I feel like sharing them with the internet might help me to be more motivated about keeping them. 

  • Don't hold onto things that will keep me from moving forward. Whether it's throwing out stuff I keep but don't actually need or letting go of things that have happened in the past.
  • Learn html!
  • Step outside of my comfort zone more often.
  • Make an attempt to be more organised.
  • Sort out my sleeping pattern and have a proper bed time (rather than playing hay day until 4am).
  • Drink more water.
  • Focus on making myself happy instead of constantly worrying about other people.
  • Put more effort into my blog.
  • Stop drawing in my school books when I should be listening (the constant stuggle).
  • Wear my retainer every night... Sounds easy but I am so lazy
  • Save money
What are your new years resolutions? What goals do you want to achieve this year? I would be interested to know as maybe that would motivate me towards keeping mine and setting more for myself.